Different Emotions I Guess

After a successful day at the horse show I lay in bed in nothing but a small towel and Roscoe covering up my feet. I feel exhausted, happy, sad, peacful, alone, loved, some grief and a tad dehydrated. A lot of different emotions I guess. 

I'm exhausted because I was in the heat all day in an annoying amount if clothes. 

I'm happy because Max tried so hard for me today. We both made some mistakes but for his first show (and first time jumping more then three fences in a row) we're doing pretty good.    

I'm sad because it's hard seeing so many familiar faces around the barn but not seeing Syd's. This weekend has been a tough one for me in regards to her. 

I'm peacful because Roscoe is quietly snoring and keeping my feet warm. Not too much can bring me as much peace... As much stillness, as my puppy can. 

I'm alone because I miss my Sydney. No other reason. 

I'm loved because I had a lot of my people come out to watch me ride today. That makes me happy. They all make me happy. I'm so lucky that I have such an amazing group supporting me. 

Greif.... That's Syd again. 

Dehydrated? Obviously I didn't drink enough water. 

A lot of emotions are pulsing through my body and mind right now. I don't think I will be able to organize them for this posting unfortunatly. It's been a weekend I'll always remember. Not only because it's Max's (and kinda Fonzy's) first show but also because I now realzed how important my barn people are to me. How much each and every one of them make up this weekend and fill it with memories. It's a special feeling knowing that we're all striving for success this show but we can all support each other at the same time. I think that's because we all have a different definition of what a successful weekend will look like. 

I don't have anything else to say right now, just had the ich to write something down. 

Much Love,

Megan