Seriously.
I do.
Oh random topic change... happy Father's Day to all the awesome fathers out there. My dad is kinda awesome. I would never say this to his face because he would twist my words into something like "Megan said I'm the coolest person ever and she said I'm a good dancer and singer and cook and she even said I dress nice and that my hair is full a luscious." None of that is true. However, my dad has many other talents. He can play hockey and make good steaks and occasionally (okay always) he is the best dad ever. He tries his best to support my crazy life choices and he listens to me when I need someone to talk to. He has so much life experience that he always seems to have an answer to every question I might have. Dad has also done some crazy, scary and kinda bad things so I know that whatever I do I can't be worse then him (jk dad, don't be mad at me for that one.)
My relationship with my dad is very extreme; We are either best friends or hardly talking. We didn't have the strongest relationship when I was growing up, party to do with me and party him. We have very similar personalities and communication isn't one of our strong points. Not even that, we're both good at talking, just about the wrong stuff. Things like feelings and emotions and other annoying things like that hardly come out of our mouths. Normally people can guess our moods by the heaviness of our foot falls, our pissed off facial expressions (even if we say "no I'm not angry"), or... In extreme cases... Our lack of breathing. Whenever you hear dad or I take in a deep breath out of no where we haven't been breathing for a while due to extreme anger and you should probably run and come back with some Schmoo cake.
We fight. This is probably the first time he's hearing of this because I don't actually let him know when I'm angry with him. But it does happen occasionally. We also get along extremely well. He gossips and I listen, he get angry and throws fits and I sit back and wait for the storm to pass, he opens up to me and I take that moment and hold onto it because I know they don't come around too often. We are so so so similar. Really our only difference is I have better control of my emotions.... Sorry not sorry.
I have a hard time being myself around my dad. I feel he doesn't ever see the fun, carefree side of me. But our relationship is getting so much stronger and I am so grateful for that. I'm extremely lucky that I have such an amazing man like him in my life. A man who is kind, honest, trustworthy (unless you have a juicy piece of gossip), and most importantly courageous. He would of never accomplished as much as he has isn't he didn't have the courage, the bravery, to chase his dreams. I want to grow into a similar person as him. No, not 6'0", 230... I want to grow into a person with similar qualities as him. I want to chase my dreams and make mistakes but always learn from them. I want to live with a (more) positive outlook on life and I want to be able to make connections with people like he does. I will grow up and I'll find someone to share my life with who has similar qualities as my dad...He set the bar extremely high for any guy.
We are both kinda unstable but in a weird way I think that brings us closer. He accept my faults and I accept his. And even though I can't say it outloud because I'm a weirdo with superstitions but I really do love him with all my heart. I would be so lost without him in my life. He gives me a kick in the butt when I need it or a hug when I least expect it. So dad, thank you for beind an amazing human being and an ever better father. And thank you for letting my tell you this all through to blog because I wouldn't be able to find the words in person.
Love always,
Your little girl.
Ps- I totally got carried away I forgot about the start of this blog. I'll go back to how happy I am another day...
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