People and Peace

Sitting along the river bank alone surround by a comfortable amount of people I'm thinking about how much I don't know. All of these individuals have lives and loved ones. They have passions and stressors. They have all seen great happiness and great sadness. I'm curious about these people and curious about their stories... Their scars.

I'm sitting in peace. Happy with myself and where I am in life, but are they? Are they here on a forced date night or reluctantly being dragged by their annoying kids out of their homes? Are all of these beautiful strangers happy? I hope so. Even though I don't know these people I want them to feel peace and happiness. I don't know why I have such a strong feeling towards others happiness but I do. I feel a sense of responsibility to help them smile even for half of a second. 

I have been in very low places in my life. Lower then any other person? Maybe, maybe not. I have been in a place mentally and emotionally that scared me, a place I hope to never visit again. Maybe being scared by so much darkness is giving me a drive to help others stay away from such a horrible place. Or maybe, just like the Maybelline girls, I was born with it. Either way, I think I am starting to discover another new thing about myself. Maybe it will lead to a career choice one day or maybe it will just be a silent fact about myself. 

Life can be crazy and confusing. We spend so much time with friends and family, so much time getting to know new people but I don't think most of us spend enough time getting to know ourselves. I truly believe that the ability to sit alone with our own thoughts is one of the strongest things a person can do. I have been getting to know myself a lot this past little bit. I'm learning I have a ton of weaknesses but I also have a ton of strengths. I'm starting to realize I'm actually a pretty cool person... It's an amazing feeling being friends with myself. 

I would find so much joy in helping other people find this peace. Even if I influence a few people in my life time I think that would be an amazing accomplishment. Along with that, I would love to meet more people who have a better understanding of this kind of peace. I want to learn more about the lives of other humans, of other culters. I am going to fill my mind with so much information on this subject.  

Much Love,

Megan